show must go on

I look around and see actors in this grandiose play of life.
I´m tired of living lies. Tired of holding back. Hiding, acting, trying to fit in.
But everything within me is screaming for truth and love.
Do I want what´s on the other side of me daring to be who I really am?
What if there´s only loneliness and poverty there?
If I lose my job because I can no longer fight my own heart and convictions.
If I lose my marriage because I can no longer pretend to be monogamous.
I don´t know what to do. My heart is sick with yearning.